Midi 102

           Since I will not, for quite some time be posting anything specifically about me (which, honestly, is probably a good thing) I decided to make this post about myself as I did the last one. Am I Narcissistic much? Eh, maybe. However, as stated, this will be the last insight into my personal self in this way for quite a while due to changes I will be making to this blog-which I will inform everyone on next week. I have been planning for a few weeks now and am very excited about it!

             Last week I posted some things about me that I hope allowed you to see some of the bad things about myself. You can breathe a sigh of relief now if you thought I planned on blowing my own horn with self-praise within this post. I do not. Actually, this post has no real direction or attitude it simply is whatever I make the next sentence out to be. Life is like that too, when you stop to think about it. You learn as you go.

             Hmm, so I guess when discussing myself it would be wise to stick to the topics that interest me most in this point in time. I have already mentioned my bisexuality, my stance on marriage equality, my pagan beliefs, etc… all that is really left, perhaps, would be my subcultural affiliation and other tidbits about yours truly. So here’s a summary of Midi on subjects I will not really be discussing in the next weeks, months, or even years.

            My maiden name is Angelea Beatrice Sakai. I am a 25 year old female, who is very eccentric. I am, for all intent and purposes, divorced. Luckily my ex husband and I were adults about the split. It was a mutual understanding and we are on wonderful terms, which I am very happy about as I consider him a good friend despite our incompatibility as a married couple. As for my personal relationship(s) I’d rather not say, at least not at this time other than to say it is simply ‘complicated’, but isn’t everything?

            I have two beautiful children. My daughter will be six in December and my son will be five in May. I cannot have any more children, as I had surgery to stop that particular condition from happening again. Believe it or not, I am also pro-choice. I would never give up my children nor do I regret having them. My kids are my life, however I understand that this is different for everyone and as it is a woman’s body, I firmly believe it is her right to choose whether or not to give birth to a child or care for that child.

           I love animals. I currently have one dog and three cats. All pets that I have ever had (past and present) are named after the gods. Hestia is my pit bull / Chihuahua mix (pure blood on both sides). She is completely white (And yes, that is annoying to my attire). Her breed causes her to be sick often, but she's a wonderful dog and is very loving and gentle with my children.
          Nyx is my black cat and I also consider her my familiar. Sterotypical? Maybe. But I love my Nyx insanely. In return, I also happen to be the only person or animal my Nyx actually likes. She constantly picks fights with the other other cats, ignores the dog, doesn't like my kids, and avoids everyone except me. She still sleeps with me every night.
          Isis is my Egyptian Mau and she’s a sweet cat. She recently got pregnant (forgot to spay her-that was amended) and gave birth to two kitten. One died and we named her Bastet. Her living kitten we named Horus. What? Like I could resist that particular blasphemy? If she had been named Mary, rest assured, the kitten’s name would have been Jesus. Anyway, moving on…

           I consider myself to be darkly-inclined, and I embrace the Goth subculture. I will say that I do not really think someone should call themselves Goth without listening to the music (Gothic Rock) and knowing the history behind it, however I am in no way an elitist about Goth nor do I care what others think I am when it comes to this subject. I often think it best to say that I am simply gothic and not Goth, in an attempt to avoid all the bullshit that goes with the term, but eh. I haven’t yet and likely will not do so. To each their own and quite frankly, I really don’t give a shit what others do in most regards.

           Lately, I have had much debate on atheistic paganism and whether or not such a thing can actually exist. I prefer to call it Pantheistic paganism. Pantheism is not atheism, but it is damn close and I accept atheism as a healthy dose of rationality (gods know that is rather lacking in many areas of today’s society). If ever I were to quit my spirituality for any reason (not likely to ever happen) I would be proud to call myself an atheist. I honestly don’t understand the hate against Satanism, paganism, etc…and those who lack religious beliefs. It is not your soul- therefore not your concern. Let us just get over it and move on with our lives.  Anyway, my spiritual beliefs are much like my sexuality. You can claim all you like that bisexuals do not exist, but I am living proof we do.

             My ethnicity is Hawaiian/Japanese, and I’m told also Native American and German. I blame all of this on why I am short (only 5’1) with dark hair and eyes. However, I do not look the least bit Hawaiian or Japanese. I simply look like…well, me. Whether this is a good thing, or a bad thing depends on my mood. I’m mostly content and that’s all that matters.

             I love body modification, any type or form of body modification- however extreme, even if I don’t find the modification particularly (sexually) appealing. I have four tattoos and eight piercings. I have a music sleeve on my left arm that is currently unfinished which starts at my inside wrist and goes up to my shoulder. I have a black rose tattoo on and my left breast which wraps around, a triple goddess pagan tattoo with LGBT stars and bisexual flag colors around it. In the center of the triple goddess symbol is a tiger’s eye yin-yang. The last one is a dragon on my right shoulder blade that I got done behind a bar at 17.

             I want my ears gauged and plan on many more tattoos and piercings. At one time I had about 20 piercings, four of which were microdermals (aka, implants) across my right eyebrow, but they came out. I currently have a tongue piercing, one whole in each ear, and the right side of my lip done. The others piercing locations I will not disclose. I plan on getting my right eyebrow redone again. I am also considering getting a black stoned microdermal in the center of my head to represent a permanent dark Bindi.  Am I crazy, do you think? I probably am. That doesn’t change me, though.

             I love psychology. I am a psychology major and I want to use my knowledge to help Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgendered people. Psychological theories never fail to amaze me and I love to learn about them. Actually, I just love science in general. I am terrible with numbers, though. And when I say terrible, never take that as an understatement. I REALLY suck at math.

             I am certainly diverse, but at the moment, this is all I think I really wish to disclose. Hopefully this post allows you more insight into me. If it has, you can take it negatively or positively- it’s your prerogative. I am simply the creator of a blog you happen to be reading. Who I am will have little standing (or will it?) on what I write about in the future, so I wanted to take the time to let you know little facts about me. And now you know!